Single mom

So once again I'm on my own, it's only for two weeks and as far as we know Ben doesn't have any other places to go this year. I keep telling myself every time he has to go somewhere that it's no different than dads that have business trips, but I feel so useless when he is gone. I'm used to taking care of things and the kids are troopers, even though I know they miss him just as much as I do, but I seriously lack motivation when he is away. Whenever he is getting ready to go somewhere I mentally make this list of everything I want to get done when he's gone, and then as soon as he leaves all I feel like doing is curling up on the couch or in bed and staying there until he comes back. I'm glad that the kids keep me busy, if it weren't for them I'd probably get nothing done. I also have to give a lot of credit to my mom and Ben's family, they pretty much take care of me and the kids while Ben is away. I'm so glad we live here in Eureka where we are so close to family.